The message for well-meaning Western activists

The message for well-meaning Western activists

Ok, folks, I understand that you want to blame your own government for all the mistakes and problems in the world. Actually, like a person who was living in Russia and Ukraine, I can say that it’s really healthy – to criticize your own government, to understand that patriotism is not about non-thinking following the leader’s voices, but about improvement.
Only, please, stop gaslighting people who have less privilege. Who has to live in a countrys where problems are ignored, and you are considered a traitor if you speak about it. Stop supporting authoritarian propaganda in “Anti-Western” society.
When you saying stuff like “UK/USA the most Islamophobic countrie in the world” you only helping China and harms Uyghurs.
And not only them. You harm Muslim people in Burma, Russia, India, ets and ets.
When you say that “UK the most racist culture in the world” or “Israel is the most aparteidic state”, or “there is no worse prison than American Guantanamo” or “UK Prevent censorship one of the worst..”
By saying all of that, you actually erase the experience of millions of people in Africa, Western Europe, Middle East, Asia…
You are not helping.
You’re creating for our human rights activists more challenges to speak about problems in our countries.
You’re making it more difficult for refugees to speak about our problems, make us feel alienated and sometimes even take away our rights for asylum.
You’re helping authoritarian regimes erase their victim’s names.
You help people still in prisons in unbearable conditions.
You destroying lives of people like me in the past, because all stuff that we knew from early years is Anti-Western propaganda from our own govs and all stuff that “progresive” folks from West told us is that we don’t have any hope anywhere.
I literally survived only because I don’t believe folks like you. I’m lucky that I used to check information many times, that it’s easy for me. So I can run away to the UK. And realized that I was right.
That your “here is the most racist and imperialist country” guys don’t know even a 10% about everyday racism in their beloved USSR.
That yeah, your Prevent (anti-extremist) program is deeply problematic but you couldn’t even imagine what real censorship looks like.
Your rear casualties are other countries’ everyday norms.
Your police raides most of the time look more nice and safe than post-USSR medical service.

And I survived and was free only because I don’t believe in “West the worst part of the world” bullshit.

Others don’t survive.
I’m lucky.
And you are deeply harming people by your “anti-racism” and “anti-islamophobia” and “progressive activism”.
So just stop killing people and erasing their suffering.

(Me in aquarium. Just a picture for more attention)

A little about religion…

O, Allah, I want to be more like your Prophet Muhammed (PBUH)

-I want to worship You and trust You, with full understanding that You are not making mistakes so my existence is not a mistake.

-I want to fight Islamophobia and be brave enough to protect my Umma (at least by words).

-I’m going to listen to women’s opinions and to the opinions of other marginalized people, because women in Arab society in the Prophet times were deeply marginalized, and the Prophet was the one who was trying to change it.

-I’m going to leave in the past all nationalistic and shovinistic stereotypes, fight rasism and nazism.

-I want to trust my feelings despite how weird they could be. And trust that feelings, not alters-persecutors like Sus who tried to stop me from been a proper Muslim or a happy person.

-I want to help the poor and hang out with outcasts.

-I want to reform society and make it more fair.

-I want to be brave enough to stand against my biological relatives and people who have power.

-Abu Hamza

#islam #religion #muslim

Afghanistan news, Taliban, ISIS, War on Terror and Human rights

On 31 of August 2021 American troops finally left Afghanistan, ending 20 years of occupation of this land. And, ironically, the Taliban government, the same government western coalition were fighting in the beginning of this war, now in power. Because of the mistakes of the War on Terror.

In this video I would tell you:

-Why you couldn’t fight terrorism/Salafi-jihadism with weapons;

-Why occupation of Afghanistan was a huge mistake;

-How Western governments and Russia helps Jihadi organizations to araise and became stronger

-How we really could fight terrorism.

#taliban #stoptaliban #waronterror #colonialism #antiwar #isis #isiskhorasan #waronislam #humanrights

Meditation could help you with religious life. I mean it. I’m a Muslim.

And of course I don’t believe in meditation like in some kind of spiritual practice. I strictly separate it from my religious life from the beginning. It’s just a mental health therapy activity for me.

But it’s actually helps me to stay here and now during dua or namaz because most of the time Sus (our persecutor alter) don’t let me prey properly and started to torture me with OCD, but after meditation I could better control my body and mind and stay present.

It was extremely difficult before.

Also it helps me to concentrate on some tasks when I really need it. And be more present and in the process when I read or watch or write something even if I have persecutor alter’s “attack” on this activity or OCD problems with it before.

-Abu Hamza.

(Me with new headphones and my cat Karim)

#mindfulness #meditation #pluralpride #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #religion #dissociativeidentitydisordersystem #did #multiplepersonalities

The Taliban came to power and the Russian ambassador in Afghanistan already called them “good guys” and “real men”.

At the same time Russia believes that the Taliban is a terrorist organization. So they don’t even try to pretend that they are not friends with terrorists.

They know that the Taliban is strictly misaginic. They don’t care about it. Or about Afghan women.

Taliban are much more conservative and misaginic than even Islamic State or Al-Qaeda.

But who care, yep?

At the same time more than a year ago I was blamed by the Russian government for supporting Islamic extremism after my pro-Islamic feminism article. So, really conservative sexist group are “good guys” for Russian and a person who wrote that you could be Muslim and feminist is an extremist.

This is all that you need to know about Russian “anti-terrorism” politics.

-Ayman

#stoptaliban #Taliban #afgaistan #russia #politics #islamism #feminism #news

Well, THIS is the most difficult video that we have ever made. Especially because of the later events. It’s about our refugee experience in Israel. So:

-What it’s mean to be an asylum seeker in Israel;

-“Arabic” mobs in cities, sexual harassment and antisemitism.

Israeli-Arab relationship

-Jews: the friendly ones and Islamophobic ones

– life in a city with mixed population

And other topics about our Israeli experience.

https://youtu.be/lZNDXmCR3ow

#israel #palestine #arabs #refugeeswelcome #refugees #personalstory #mentalhealthawareness #trauma #mentalhealth

This is one of the most difficult video that we ever made.

Eric is out and proud Zionist and Abu Umar fell strong empathy toward people in Gaza.

Abu Aziza more like with Abu Umar.

Ayman and Ver.B.A. with Eric.

Well, now actually I’m in the middle.

We may have different logical positions but in emotional level our System like splitted in two.

This is a video about all this situation. And what it’s mean to be a System in day like that one.

-Abu Hamza.

#israel #pluralpride #did #osdd #osddsystem #osdd1b #multiplesclerosisawareness #dissociativeidentitydisordersystem #arab #plural #disabilityawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth

Eid Mubarak to anyone celebrating Eid al-Fitr.

I decided to write this System support post for all Systems with a Muslim members/alters/headmates.

You are real and you matter. Your beliefs are real.

You are a real Muslim. Your faith is real even if not all in a System accept it. I don’t know how it’s working and unfortunately there is no information in Quran and Sunnah about Dissociative identity “disorder” or OSDD1, and medicine wasn’t really good in the time of the Prophet (SWT). But now we know that alters are not a jeens, alters are not a possession and every imam or scholar who respects science would tell you that.

So you are not “wrong”. You are not “sinful” because some of your alters are kuffar. No one could control other alters and alters sometimes accept the views that we supplant. This is ok. This is how our brain works and protects themself because dissociation is a protective mechanism.

So, In Sha Allah, God would understand and accept your prayers.

People sometimes couldn’t understand, but Allah knows best. And He is Merciful.

So, In Sha Allah, everything would be fine.

-Abu Hamza

#islam #eidmubarak #eid #muslim #didalters #osdd #osdd1b #osddsystem #dissociativeidentitydisordersystem #dissertation #plural #pluralpride

About Israeli-Palestinian conflict

TW: police violence, antisemitism, Islamophobia

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Ok, unpopular opinion!

I hate all mainstream leftist talking about Israel politics. And I wouldn’t even speak about complete ignorance in Zionism history and ideology, that most mainstream leftist have.

And I wouldn’t speak how extremely often “anti Zionism” is actually a nice new name for old “antisemitism”.

It’s completely another topic.

I just want to speak about one simple tendency that pisses me off.

Especially after I lived in Israel and saw the situation there.

So:

1.A: *An Israeli policeman attacked young Muslim man*

(Huge reaction from international media).

B: *A Russian policeman arrested dozens peacful Muslim in their flat because they was talking about Sharia of because they are Salafi/part of peacful Hizb-Ut-Tahrir group*

(Zero reaction from international media).

C:China arrested and tortured hundreds and thousands Muslim.

(No big reaction; not so big as to Israel stuff. Or massive arrests have the same reaction as arresting one man in Israel).

2.A:Israel destroyed some “Palestinian setellment” some years ago.

(Huge reaction even now)

B:Russian government completely destroyed Groznuy (a big city in Chechnya) just to stop separatist movements.

(Well, I’ve never seen any reaction from leftist to this event nowerday. But they remember everything that Israel did)

Reaction to any problems that happened with Muslim in Israel is huge, while even biggest problems with Muslim rights in Russia and other post-USSSR, or China, Burma and other Asian countries never have such attention in media and from leftist activists.

It’s especially piss me off because I lived in Russia when many people used to feel sorry for “poor Palestinian Muslim” just because they haters Jews and belived in Jewish conspiracy. Because the same people actually they harassed and openly hated Muslim in their everyday life.

I don’t say that police in Israel is not a problem- even the majority of people I meet in Israel believe that police are too aggressive and suspicious.

I doesn’t think that there is no discrimination of Arabs in Israel – there is.

Or that politics toward Muslim population in Israel is wise – no, on the contrary.

I just saying that I piss off that many people don’t really care about Muslim or Arabs (Palestinian or any other). They just hate Jews and need justification to their antisemitism.

And everyone- including the media and human rights groups- support them.

And this is sucks!

-Ayman

#Israel #Palestine

Shame

Shame.

In Russian language there is a proverb: “completely lost their shame”. It means a bad, immoral person.

I hate this proverb. I want to completely lose my shame.

Sometimes it feels like we couldn’t live any more because our shame is too strong, too painful. And many times it is a shame for stuff that wasn’t our fault at all.

We are ashamed that we don’t fight back in school, that we don’t fight back at home, that we let us be victims of our classmates and our parents. We are ashamed of selective mutism and physical problems that we have in our teen age. We were ashamed that we weren’t privileged enough.

And at the same time we are ashamed that we were too privileged. We have always had food, we have always had housing, we have periods of time that we have work that we like. We have never been as extremely poor as my wife was when she was working. And it’s painful. It made us feel like our problems mean nothing, like we have to pay all our lives, save others just for the fact that we have something to eat. That we have no rights for happiness because other people weren’t so lucky. I know that it came from my parents: “you said that you are unhappy! Ha! Look at these poor starving kids on TV”; “I gave birth to your brother for you. How could it be difficult? If you lived in the village you would have your own kids this year”.

Parents teach us to feel shame before we start to speak, they teach us that shame is SAFE because otherwise we would be extremely bad and would go to hell after death.

It helps them to control us.

We were ashamed that we spoiled some clothes that we don’t really like and that my Mum force me to wear, because “other kids dream about this stuff” and “I spend ages finding it”. Like other kids, poverty or my Mum’s ideas about shopping was my PROBLEMS.

We were ashamed that we supported some “pro-Russian” ideas and believed that Russian Orthodox Church is persecuted by society when we lived in Ukraine, because I’m our teenager our parents don’t give us time to find info about politics and fully control our life’s. Like parents hiper protective behaviors and constant lie was my fault.

When I first faced with sexual harassment in school parents blame me too. I let it happened.

Anything that would happened with me is my fault.

And you know how it’s painfully in the System?

Eric still feel ashamed that I (not even him!) wasn’t yell at our history teacher when she practically justified Holocaust. Our 4 years old Little Liza believed that it could be HER fault because she has the strongest selective mutism in the System. It was more than ten years ago. But we still feel shame. We, not our teachers, not guys who wrote extremely anti-Semitic school program and traumatized Jewish kids. We!

I think only one guy in our System was honest to the end. Abu Umar feel ashamed and guilty that so many Muslim died in China cinsentration camps, in Chechnya, Afghanistan, Iraq, Sham. “Just read about Uyghurs!”

“Just look at these pictures! Look how “Crusaders” “liberate” Mosul! They just burn the city”

Ok, what WE could do? When I asked it, his answer was really honest: “at least we could fight and In sha Allah die together with them”.

Right. So there is what it’s all about, that shame. It’s all about “you have no right to exist”, “you need to justify your existence because everything bad that going on is somehow about you”.

Only after that conversation I fully realize how extremely toxic all this shame culture is, and how parents could literally kill their kids when they teach them that shame is something good.

-Ayman